Thoughts of Sania

Staring at the screen all day long I know this isn't where I belong I look at old photos of us from time to time Being reckless in the stages of our prime Frolicking and laughing under the sun Truly thinking that with each other, we had won. My eyes are now always on a distant land Where she resides and I'm meant to be But how do I get there? That's unplanned Years ago, I meant to ask- "Take me with you when you go?" For I knew she was a rolling stone But it was too late she had already left. Discarding me as if I hadn't waited For her and for her upcoming quest. Dwindling down I cry for her to come back And not break our 'sister's forever' pact But once it all settled down inside, Heartbroken and miserable, I felt Knowing these feelings couldn't be helped Because my yearning to leave with her It was so emphasised, it was so strong And my stay in this place without her It felt so sullen and it felt so wrong.

My love is mine, all mine I wish I could let you know that too Because you seem to use it all the time. You crossed the lines I drew. All the precautions I insisted you have, Into the wind, you threw. All the boundaries I made, You disregarded them all, And I just watched them fade. After you're done with your torment, If I'll be able to pick up all my pieces, I'll join them together before I lament. After you're done with me, I'll never let my love be  Departed from me. If it were up to me, I wouldn't share it Even if I were to perish  I'd perish holding on to it. Because it's my love, all mine.

 What are you thinking? I ask you as  I lie beside you, clueless and insecure With your face under the moonlight looking so pure While we look up, stargazing, at the beach You smile and tilt your head towards me And all at once, all of my worries flee You didn't answer my question but I know From the look on your face and that glow. You were thinking about us, weren't you? Our near future of togetherness wherein You and I are blessed with worries so few Not because we are oblivious to the hereafter but  Because our good times are long due. I smile too, and you say I look beautiful Especially with the moonlight reflecting on my face,  And with that praise, I lock eyes with your tender gaze Which soothes me and puts my mind in a calm haze. I wish this day never ends, I pray to the shooting star That I almost missed as I was looking over to you And I know you saw that shooting star too and  You probably wished for the same thing too Even though you say you don't be...