SOLO PERFORMER

By SANIA

 Will you call out my name when I leave?

Will it carry forward like a whisper in the breeze?
Will tears shine in your eyes once the shock subsides?
Will you wail or sob once you realise,
That once again, you’ve been left behind.
Cast aside and forgotten, like that hobby
That you gave up on when you were twelve.

I don’t mean for you to feel that way and
I hope I don’t hurt you too much,
When I go to perform my next big show.
You were never meant to be a part of my crew,
And our goodbye had been long overdue.
I am a solo performer, not bound by your pack rules.
I stay for a minute, then leave because my heart wants to.

All for the sake of your feelings, I halted myself.
But the halt couldn’t be stretched any longer
For I had places to be and things to see.
The newest horizons called my name
And I really wished to step up my game
But for your sake, I halted for a minute
A minute that was too long and
A minute that was too short,
All at the same time, bound by everything sublime.

This isn’t even about you; it's about my guilt.
I’m sorry I hurt you, but I had to.
Goodbyes always hurt anyway, that’s not a rule I made
But I hope, soon, the pain fades away,
And in comes the light that shines on
The joyful laughter that we shared.


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